1 Corinthians 13:2 "... and if I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing."
Today I read 1 Corinthians 13 which states what love is and what love is not. I have heard these verses multiple times, but today I took the time to read them and claim them for myself. I can be very unloving at times. I do have an attitude(which can escalate during certain times) and I've come to accept that I have an attitude. Today I realized or rather God brought it to my attention I need to live out love and that there is no need for me to accept my attitude.( side-note: we're on an adventure with God everyday! He shows us and continues to mold us in our everyday lives!) Today I realized I need to live out love and there is no need for me to accept my attitude. My attitude affects those I interact with daily whom are also the ones I love most, which does not express the love I have for them. I don't have to accept my attitude or rather I SHOULD NOT accept my attitude because it comes from my flesh. God can deliver me from my attitude as long as I say: 'God, I don't want to hold on to this attitude any longer. I want to be filled with love, YOUR love. Let love consume me, Lord.' I have to take authority over the attitude and take it captive in Jesus' name. 1 Corinthians 13:2 states: "... and if I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing." Love fuels who I am supposed to be, what my faith is supposed to be. This resided with me because it made me ask myself these questions: Am I loving? Do I live out love? Do I show love to whom I care about most? Thinking about this reminds me of the hardened heart I had towards my mom for not getting help when I knew she needed it and for allowing her strongholds to stop her from doing more with my family and I. during the first hospital stay I began to feel my heart to soften and thought maybe God was using the hospital stay to soften my heart. When she came home from the first hospital I had to do everything for her because that hospital made her stationary. I feel bad because I would release attitude toward her while in this time, but I've come to realize my anger came from the situation. I allowed my anger to be directed towards her instead of taking it to the cross and leaving it there. It's a regret that I now live with because I allowed a lot of my anger to be directed towards her. She understood and would always say it's ( the arguing then back to "normal") who we are (were). She knew (knows) I love her. This situation taught me to show love towards your loved ones while they are here on earth. While it's a lesson I've learned, it's about time I put it into practice. God Bless